User blog comment:Typhron/Karma's Problems./@comment-5955640-20130827224456

Hmm. I was very hesisant to read this. We've talked about this before. I stand by both Karmas. But between the inexplicable Jungle Karma at the tourny. People figuring out how to play her mid and support effectively. And pretty much seeing Karma several times a day rather than every other month once.

I dunno. It speaks for itself doesn't it?

If Karma was a person do you wonder what should would say? Obviously being a fictional character no one really knows the character more than the person who created them or at the very least. Her lore writer. But lets pretend that she's a real person along with other champions. And they have some convention taking place. Ionia Con 2014 or the like. And they're having a thing where all the Ionia champs sit down and people ask them questions for an alloted time.

You think to yourself that this would be the chance to drop this question. While it's still pretty fresh in the mind. You make it to the Ionia Con and you muscle your way to the front and when they picked you to ask the next question you dropped that bombshell. There would probably be groans of annoyance and people asking you to be escorted out for being a killjoy and possible rabble rouser.

But Karma would hear you out. She would humbly request for silence and let you speak your mind. You would say something akin to what you have said here I imagine. The room would be silent. Yes. Silence at a convention. Double Rainbow moment. Karma would look at you and answer. She would say.

"Not a day goes by where your thoughts don't cross my mind. I too remember the past quite fondly. I felt a special kinship with the summoners that stood by my side as I sat in the shadows of my allies. Bringing much glory to their lands and happiness to their summoners. I shared very little of either but the summoners. The people. Who saw what I could be and perserved with me. There are few words to express on how it felt to be so noticed, so understood, I remember the taunts. I too still hear them time and again.

But now it reminds me of when that was the truth. When most people didn't know or care about me. But even then. That was never truly true. People did care. You cared. They were few. But that did not make them less important. No. The lack of numbers made it all the more special. You stood up for me and brought me to the field of battle and every fight I promised to myself that I would not fail you and whatever it took to win I was ready to face it.

I did not care for the reason that you chose me. Hopefully it was a choice that was altrustic in nature but giving me the chance at all was a grace that I do not question nor turn down. When you turned me down for someone else in ranked. Or caved when pressured by allies I did not feel disdain for you. I understood why and accepted it. I cherished the times we did have all the same.

When Riot approached me with their proposal for a major rework I was divided on it. I saw what they wanted to try and I knew that it would mean turning my back on all of you. We had talked about buffs and minor reworks but nothing ever fell through. I meditated on it for countless days and nights. Just as my allies caved. I did as well. I told my self by throwing away a bit of the past I could pave for a greater future.

I hoped, I prayed that you would understand. But I knew deep down you wouldn't. I only had myself to blame. The people at Riot gave me a choice and I could have turned it down. But maybe. For a moment. I felt obligated to be selfish. Just this once. So I went through with the rework. I knew that I was different. And I could feel that I had abadoned my allies. My friends. For a fringe chance at being like everyone else. Apperciated by a much larger pool of summoners.

I made that choice. But maybe I shouldn't have. I-I do not know what I should have done. I'm sorry! I shouldn't have turned my back on you! You were my friends and I loved every single one of you and I beg that you find it in your heart to forgive me. I miss you and I know that you will never return to me for what I had done and rightfully so and yet I hope that one day you would change your mind.

I know the truth and I always knew it deep down. The past I had cherished and the people that I care for are gone. And they will never return. I burned that bridge. And it will never be rebuilt. And I will carry the regret of my actions until my dying days and beyond. I had learned a harsh lesson. That we cannot cherish the past and our friends are far and fleeting. That we will ultimately make a choice that we feel should be the best. Find the choice that ends all our suffering. But such a choice does not exist. We may find some solace but we will always suffer.

I wanted to be content with what I had. But I wasn't. So I changed. I am still not content. And I will never be. But that is how it must be. That is my future. And this time. I will not turn my back on it. I thank you for the times we had together. And I hope that you will love again some day. It won't be me but to know that you too have a future to pave can only fill me with hope that you find some solace worth holding onto. Thank you. For everything."

Obviously with that she's brought the house down and pretty much ended the questionaire and on a somber note no less.

I didn't pull this out of my face by the way. I've been thinking about this for quite awhile. I know how I appear and what i've said. I don't know how much it will mean to hear a person say this. But i've been there. And I understand. Nothing else can really fix what is broken. So all one can say is that they understand and that they are sorry.

As a gift from me to you. All Old Karma fans. I give you Karma's soliloquy.

Thank you for reading.