User blog:ObsidianLazarus/Grind for Gold has killed me.

With Season 3 coming to an end, I attempted to finish what I should have done a long time ago, and get Gold. I really should have done it when I had the chance, heck, the extra 2 weeks was a godsend. But alas, I tried for Gold in the brief time I had, and now I'm burnt.

Generally when I played Ranked, I'll do decent, or I won't. And when I don't do decent, and lose consecutively, I get frustrated and annoyed. This generally means I'll continue doing bad, because I'm annoyed and can't focus, so after asking for a bit of tips around here, decided that I'll just stop when I started to get annoyed. Unfortunately, to get Gold with the limited amount of time I had left, I didn't have this luxury. Enemy team surrendered? Queue again. We threw at the last moment? Queue again. I went 2/10 and was berated? Queue again. This meant that my performance, and sanity, degraded at a steady, noticeable and painful rate.I was gaining LP at a rate of about 21 LP per win, and 15 per loss, pretty good stuff. I reached 97 LP, meaning one game would award me a chance at a promo, which obviously isn't a definitely thing, but never reaching a series definitely means no promotion. I then proceeded to lose 7, I believe, matches in a row. Once I did finally break the lose streak, I noticed a severe drop in LP gain. After losing and winning my way to one final loss at 60~ LP, I called it quits. I never wanted to quit during a match so bad. I never thought I'd get frustrated in such a sustained way as I am now playing League.

During this grind, the game hasn't been fun at all. It feels like work, like a burden. I can't wait for this Season to end. I don't even play Elise, and only your team mates can see your border, so I don't even know why I care. Maybe it's because I don't want to be the only one out of my komrades who's still Silver. Maybe because I had so much time and didn't accomplish anything.

TL:DR- I tried.