Thread:Double Slap/@comment-3391671-20180123050816/@comment-3391671-20180126115518

TBH, when I read "He's been through some shit. He lived the dream long enough to see it crumble."... that's a dandy quote. Kind of what I could imagine Nevon saying. "I've been through a lot. I've had my dream for long enough to see it crumble before me... but there is only forward."

Nonetheless, if you don't mind me typing my mind onto this message, it's a wonderful exercise to try and enter the mind of characters you make, or that of others. As human beings, we are conceited in thinking that we can somewhat read the minds of others, thus make "correct" guesses as to how to determine a person's behavior. And it is maturity in ways to learn how to actually take a step back and reflect on the complex implications. We all can't act like saints, or else that leads to naivety that can get the better of us in the shark pool of greedy souls. Nonetheless, the best of authors are able to create forth a character, be it intentionally or accidentally, with a depth to them and an aspect that is humanly believable. This is possibly one of my trains of thoughts that causes me to look at "the herald of justice" or "the absolute sinister evil" as overdone characters, as they leave the realms that is tangible to a sane mind. Of course, we don't need to drive ourselves insane to feel that is a deep character, but be able to gain access to that possible part of ourselves that can share that perspective. Writers. Directors. Actors even. They wield the incredible power of imagination, but know how to tame it to an appropriate level.

Anyways, now to answer: What is Nevon's moral code?

What I would like to do next, as you may expect, is to make a comparison to Nevon's Before and his After. I'm certainly aiming to give an impression that through the events he's witnessed, he has gained some wisdom. And as you state, Nevon isn't supposed to be that holy Jesus doctor with a million advice to a patient's anxious question. The ideal of a human would be if they could be that holy... but that wouldn't make anything dynamic, unless I'm aiming to deconstruct such a high figure. But Nevon's supposed to learn, so upwards he goes. But... I will admit, I won't be able to answer all these questions in full circle. Partly because I'm still brainstorming/need someone to bounce ideas, and other part... treating these individuals (champion concepts) like other humans, and trying not to overdo with assuming what they may actually do/think.

So to define in order of questions given:
 * What is Nevon's perspective of death?
 * Death of enemies? Noxus?
 * Death of allies? Zaun?
 * Nevon's early perspective on death were likely shallow, tagging long with his ideals/delusions. By this, I refer to how mild their approaches were to their jobs, leading to just as mild understanding of the concepts about them. Even as a doctor who probably saw death in Zaun as much as tired factory workers and hopeless patients, his concept of death was only civilian. This meant that once he was exposed to the fact that his medicine and tech were hurting more than they were healing, he reviewed some things, with "death" being reflected on the side.
 * Before, Nevon had seen "death" as the inevitable. A natural occurrence. Something outside his reach once a man was gasping for their last breaths. But with the incident, he saw this way of thinking to be partially irresponsible, or bystander-in-thought. Now, Nevon still thinks of death in the same way, but with a touch of trying to put effort beyond that. He would go on a short journey through Zaun, rediscovering the values of life and death face-to-face as both a doctor and as a human being, instead of thinking himself as a man with skill "doing what he can do."
 * For his enemies, evidently, he doesn't spell death on them directly. As a doctor, he feels tasked with healing what he can; and only as a supposed last resort would he think of death upon his enemies. However, it's undeniable that he loathes the nation that had taken advantage of his talents briefly; but he evermore hates the energy that causes people to betray and hurt others, with people or other beings just being moved by them naturally in ways. As for allies, not that he has coped with death, but aside from offering his condolences, he's accepted "death" as an eventual. Either way, attempting to   of life and death for any reasons is bothersome to him, both out of frustration that they've achieved something he isn't able to provide but also because of the awareness of the break of balance between the joys of life and the grievance in death. He'd probably would like a good chat with.


 * What is Nevon's view on honesty? Especially after being tricked.
 * Before, "honesty" was a simple other-side to "dishonesty," where Nevon would compare the poor and rich to them respectively. At times, he would have a self-righteous interpretation, which brooded his opinion that Piltovians were too pompous to be "genuine," which includes honesty.
 * However, after being tricked, he took a dive away in believing in the honesty of others. This can be coupled with how when he returns to Zaun, he witnesses that some of his past patients who had done rehab were back to their addictions, regardless of their words to him. Thus, honesty is a subject I would consider rocky for Nevon to tread upon; he wouldn't have a clear answer, but surely believes it needs to be really proven. As an individual who has come to trust his observations of others as "patients," thus believing more in his judgements of their "symptoms." True honesty and perseverance to it proves as a good mark on his mind.
 * If anything, he would believe in the "honesty" of those oppressed over the oppressor's.


 * What is Nevon's view of war?
 * A foreign concept before, now something that is close enough. Why? He sees that war is not just the battles fought, but the politics and culture clashes between nations. A touchy subject for sure. He also believes that wars don't have to be a battlefield, and that a place like Zaun can be fight with itself. Nevon also realized that thinking "war is bad" isn't going to pay any good, thus he seeks to see what he can mend with his own hands.


 * What is Nevon's view on miracles? Magic?
 * Nevon's likely have had his own share of being called "a miracle maker" as a doctor, both before and after. The way he has taken the word has changed, maybe not dramatically, but certainly deepening with time. Before, he would deny the claims out of courtesy, with small thoughts of pride creeping into his mind. Now though, he rejects such claims in a more melancholic way, where there is a hint of pessimism and humility.
 * In general though, Nevon believes that miracles can happen, but doesn't place his heart into believing they'll occur conveniently. This is backed by his practical mindset.
 * As for magic, it's hard to determine where he lands. He uses quite a bit of Hextech technology, but doesn't use them beyond being batteries to his devices. However, he is aware it exists, and lacks a proper opinion on it. Kind of like miracles, he welcomes them when they are there, but places no expectations on them.


 * What is Nevon's view of a "correct" answer for subjective matters?
 * Nevon before believed himself to be able to offer "correct" answers for subjective matters, and saw himself as an authority for that reason. But after the incident, from what I can say, he finds that "correct" should not be searched in subjective matters. However, he is rather drawn to "the oppressed," or better to say the "true patients," as mentioned above. By this, he takes the side of those who have been on the bottom, suffering and serving, more than those who have only been the seat of authority.


 * How does Nevon view life?


 * When will Nevon be satisfied?
 * How far is Nevon willing to devote himself?
 * Why is Nevon a Doctor?


 * What does Nevon think of family?


 * What does Nevon think of "allies?" Rather the divide between friend and foe.